For some reason today has not been good. There are days when I feel so pissed off with my friend, Beth. Maybe it’s jealousy, or just frustration. Don’t get me wrong, she’s a lovely character but sometimes she’s stubborn and too naïve. It really frustrates. She hate going out of her comfort zone and acts like a spoiled princess sometimes – today was another time when it was shown. Me and Ben were sitting either side of her and listening to music, she was going on and ON about this Jamie Oliver podcast which is actually quite funny but it really isn’t as amazing as she reckons and me and Ben start discussing how Blur were one of those top bands that really sum up the nineties as a decade, Beth, however, not liking this topic of conversation as it involved the nineties and a band she is not particularly fond of, snatches Bens MP3 player and scrolls it down to The Who to demonstrate ‘the making of one of the most amazing bands in history, obviously not as good as the Beatles’. She starts headbanging to THE worst Who song ever, which was also a bit smoochy ballad. Ben goes along with her because he is obsessed with her. That’s another thing that frustrates me about her. She could probably have anyone she wanted, I’ve never thought of her as particularly stunning but I guess she is pretty. I know of four guys who fancy her (two of which I’m not a fan of, a bit weird, although Ben is growing on me) and Jake is one of them. I spent two weekends in very close contact with Jake on D of E last year and now officially hate his guts, and he hates me – the feeling’s mutual I guess. He doesn’t exactly treat her well and she thinks he’s weird but she still hugs and kisses him whenever he demands, the minute he turns his back she’s telling how weird she thinks he is. It’s like she takes advantage of them. I, on the other hand, have a serious emotional problem when it comes to boys. Whenever a guy is nice to me I never believe that it is true and just kinda laugh it off or be rude, I hate it and I really want to stop but it just isn’t working. Some would call it play “hard to get” but I call it annoying!! Anyway, back to the issue of BETH. Yeh so she’s got all these guys interested in her and I think she’s knows how to feel, she doesn’t really tell me if she likes them or not I sorta have to guess. Another thing is that she’s sooooooooooo stubborn!! She won’t listen to music outside of her comfort zone (basically, that is Coldplay or Elvis Presley), when I introduce her to music I love she says she won’t listen or she hates the first few beats of the first of their songs that she has listened to! Then, months later she’ll come up to me with the same CD and say, “WOW! Have you heard of this band?! They’re amazing!” I mean, I’m quite up to date with new music. . . I like listening to bands that no one has heard of and especially the ones that have that little sparkle in their songs and so I’m always buying CDs that are different and irregular to the status quo of the music store geeks. Beth hates weird new bands, she likes to go with the flow and thinks that what she likes everyone will like. Well, she’s wrong AND I KNOW SHE IS. It just frustrates me, ya know. I also hate the way that her family is so different to mine. They’re young and hip and modern (Her parents got married at the age of 19 and her mum was pregnant with her at 23). See, I always thought that was weird, why ruin your life by having kids at the age of 23? Her mum never went to university and I think she’s regretting it now. I mean, I’m sure Sally isn’t regretting having three children by the time she’s 30. It’s just that in my family fun comes first – in everything. My mum has always said that I should always try to do well in subjects I enjoy and then concentrate extra hard in the subjects which I find difficult. My whole family has always encouraged the ‘kids’ in my family to go to university and get a job that you enjoy. My cousin is doing just that, she is currently at Southampton uni and has a year and a half to go; she’s having the time of her life. She loves it so much and recommends it thoroughly. I don’t want to get married early in my life, I want to go to uni, travel the world and get a stable job before I even start to think about marriage and babies. My mum had me when she was 34, she married my dad when she was 32, and my dad was 29. They didn’t meet until they were at least mid-twenties. Whereas, Beth’s parents were first loves and found each other at the age of 15. I think that’s ridiculous, how can you find ‘the one’ when you’re 15? I just don’t get it. My mum had tons of boyfriends before she met my dad, my dad had a lot of girlfriends (I think it was the afro that did it!). But I guess Beth does benefit in some aspects from having young parents, they understand how to text and are fashionable-er than my parents (my mum still likes to wear trousers up around he chest!) but the wisdom and traditional ties are lost in her family. Because Beth’s mum had her at such an early age she has concentrated on bringing her up, as well as her two other brothers, and has lost that wisdom that she can pass onto her children. She is more like their best friend who is sometimes a bit controlling.

I’m sorry if I’ve offended anyone.

It’s just my rantings and ravings and jealousies of my friends.

Much love

XX ELLY XX