Ok. . . .This is so hard.

Maybe he does like me. Or not. See, I don't know - now he's sending mixed signals! He sees me but acts like he's too cool for me. I really like him. I leave earlier this year seeing as it;s my final so I won't have as much time to get to know him via the school way.

Grrrrr.

My head is so screwed up!

Can't stop thinking about him. I don't know why. There are plenty of boys I know who I COULD like. But i don't want them. Any of them, they just aren't as good.

Him. He's the one I want. But if I get to know him I know I'll screw it up.

I haven't the guts. maybe it's safer to go with someone I know better. A friend.

Oh, but it's just not what I want!

He probably has a girlfriend, I have seen with lots of girls. They're all over him.

And I saw him getting cosy with someone on bonfire night last year. This is all so complicated - I hate it.

I just feel like screaming!!